Beyonce - Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
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Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

-Nightmare-

      When i was in my sleep,that day maybe it's just a usual but i just feel tired,i sleep around 11:16 pm,and then everythings start to feel cold,it's just fade a away,all the warmht just gone..and thats all.Then suddenly i'm just standing infront of a window in the guest-sleeping room,i look around but there is no one there,only a few lamp that on,and all my family is already asleep at they're own room.
       After that i look outside my house from the window,and...there's my cat just playing outside in the balcony,and as i remember,my cat is already in my father's room to sleep with my father and my mother.But it's just strange my cat playing outside,then the weird part is,there's two man standing infront of my house fence',one just come with a medium torch in his hand,one is standing to wait for something.Then they talked each other,they walked around the complex...so i just took my cat that paying in outside and got back to my room,then suddenly when i look back,one man is already held a big fogging machine,and one with the torch,then the horrofying scene beggins.
       So i walked downstairs,it's dark,no lamp was on that night,then suddenly,i started to see flying paper in fire,it's weird and it's just fly in the air,and the burning paper it's only about 4-5 paper that flying.When i looked at the window downstairs,the first men start to blow a white smoke to my house,the smoke it's the same colour with the smoke from the cigarettes,and it's start to flew over my house.Then the second man just throw the torch to the guestroom outside,then my house is on fire.
       I cannot hear anyone,i just saw my sister running around and tried to extinguish the fire with everything around,all rooms and all items are start to burn,all the things that made of wood is burning,it's fire everywhere,from pitch black  to hell-like fire,it's scary,the stairs are broken and the stove exploud,it's very hot  and fiery.When i look back to the window,all my family and my cat's,all the people in the house already outside from the house,then it's just me left.I can't hear them screaming my name,i just look them.And then with a blink of an eye,like an atmosphere from the sky that came like a soft-fog pass through and turned all the fire off,and it's a cold fog,and just make me lost all my energy.
      Suddenly i just passed out and all the family came back to house,there's no fire,no ashes,no burned things,or even broken stairs.And as i closed my eyes,then i'm awake,it's about 04:54 am,i ran to outside,and suddenly there's two man,one brought a torch,one brougth fogging machine,as i stare at them,they suddenly ran away from my house,and my cat is outside the room but not in the garden.it's still dawn in the morning,and the secutiry guard from the complex just came to one lampposts and knoced it with a stick 5 times,which it means,it's already 5 o'clock,then i got back to my room and comeback to sleep.

 

Go Away

Don't want anymore of all your love
I will never touched anymore by your confession
You will never feel this pain
All the promise and lies from your sweet mouth

Don't want anymore i lost in all your tricks

All the word you say it's not the arrow that can pass through my trust

You will never understand this pressure 

 All the sweet talk and swear from your big mouth

Just go, far away out from my life

Bring all your regrets and your guiltiness  

Leave me here,all by my own without you

Bring all the secrets that you keep from me

For years my hands hold yours till now

I trust you,I proud of you,I give you everything

But now,it's just a hollow dissapointment

So,dont't ever get back to me,say goodbye,and vanished away

-You can see me but you will never touch me- 

About Us

All the clouds below the sky
That came make the earth feel gloomy
Take me back to the sorrowfull past
Incised deep wound in the heart

My dear,believe me as you believe your own

In your heart that my love has landed

All the journey and second i waste for

It's only to find the truth about me that trapped in your heart

About Us,Don't you ever forget it 

Let it be the tale behind our stories

The moment of our restlessness and proud 

That will be enternal in melody and promise

It's a curse if we are separated

It's a promise that we should stay forever as always

Don't be scared and vanished if it's makes you anxious

And let us to be living witnesses in between our love story

It's about...us...only 

  

Angan yang Hampa

Di saat mentari terbit dari timur
Aku dipuja dan aku namaku mereka tanam di hatinya
Mereka tersenyum bangga seakan aku yang membawa angan mereka
Mereka berharap banyak yang mungkin aku sulit mengerti

Namun,ada kala aku jatuh ke dalam jurang

Berapa kali dan sedalam apa mungkin aku sukar mengingatnya

Mereka mungkin menarik aku keluar dan perlahan namun pasti

 Namun ada kalanya mereka membiarkanku yang terluka setelah jatuh

Mereka mungkin masih membawa aku

Namun,mereka membawaku tanpa adanya tangan yang meraih ketika aku membutuhkan

Sekarang mereka membiarkan aku jatuh ke dalam perangkap atupun jurang yg dalam

Tangan berganti menjadi tali yang mengikat erat dan mengangkatku keluar

Sungguh hatiku tertanam belati yang tajam seruncing anak panah

Belati itu kian lama makin dalam dan tidak ada yang mencabutnya

Biarpun mereka merasakan,namun hati mereka telah buta akan dirinya

Yang sudah mengantuk akan kehadiranku dan telah pupus semangatnya

Ya...Inilah sulitnya hidup,hukum rimba sudah pupus di jiwa mereka.

Saat orang itu membutuhkanmu,mereka meraihmu dengan senyum

Namun jikalau mereka jenuh denganmu,pilihan mereka adalah membiarkanmu jatuh dalam perangkap

Angan-angan yang mereka panjatkan,hanya sesuatu yang munafik layaknya belati yang menikam hatimu itu. 

Short Story

There is one little family,a men and a women that has two child,one is a girl,one is a boy.But the pitty is,in his big family,he doesn't have any boy sibblings,with all is women,he past through discrimination and isolation in his life.Untill now the boy has already stay with his little family,far from the big group of his grand family,everyday he went home at night because he must pick up his sister and pick up his mother and back at home at around late evening.Everyday of his life is such a sad scenario,altough he already has a big house,a nice room,a family,a facilities,money for the school,for buy snack at school,for going out,for buy all things he needs,but still one thing that he doesn't have is there is an emptiness in his soul.He don't know that everyday all his little family member is insulting him from behind or emberass/shaming him at the public,in his life,he has no privacy,he cannot old the key of his own room,or have his own file adn document that can securely safe without anyone seeing it because of they're curiosity.It doesn't mean he is not thankfull to God,but he always get more pain and more pain that make his soul and heart suffering without anyone knowing,he always covered it with his smile and laugh that make people think he is okay.He never tell anyone in his family because they all just liar's,all the stories and his vent that he tell,always known by everybody in his family,so he always put the pain on his friend,because he never find a privacy in his family or even secrets in his family.Day's and day's pass through,what he always hope is try to got out from the house and run as fast as he can to the new good experience that he can try,but now he just caged in his house,where no privacy and no secrets,everytime he make a mistake,what he will get is a threat..threat...threat...threat that make him uncomfotable in his house and more suffering.Rain that falls every period only can make him remember the pass,but not lead him into the pass,what he can do is only hoping in the next day he still survive to live this life,try to get the target as he want,and finish his studies untill he can work at the place he wanted to,then find his love in his life journey,have a kids in his life between him and his wife with a happy good family,then face to God with a smile on his face at the long age.

Ancient Massive Temple Of Jogja

Borobudur Temple :

Prambanan Temple :

Mythical Place of Jogja

Jogja is not only a city with many places to have fun and many places to shopping or buy some souvenir and the culinary.But,there's one place that i know and i visited there,one of the famous mystical place in Jogja is "The Banyan twin tree",the local usually called it "Beringin Kembar"

You maybe think that this is just a normal twin tree,but,what make it's legend that those tree are planted by the wife of the Sultan,and such amazingly,those three can grow at the same time,although with different size,and all the people in Jogja respect that tree as one of their heritage from the sultan and his queen.And the challenge is,you must pass through the center/in between of the tree staight with your eyes close,you cannot close your eyes with your hand,but you must use blindfold,usually there is a women or men that rent it Rp1.000,oo/1 blindfold (it's cheap,isn't it ?),then try to walk from the distance in the picture above.

 Some People said,if you got through in between the trees,you may have a very big chance of luck,but it's not apply forever,you can try next time if you fail to get through it.Some people said,you can say what is your wish,if you get pass,then maybe your wish will become true.Usually,this place is crowded when student in Jogja has a final exam or graduation,then they try their luck.From many people that try this experience,some of them said that they like being guided by someone,hold their hands and lead them,and while they walk through the trees,they smell like such strong scent of old jasmine scent,but,they do it with eye closed.Challenging isn't it ? So why don't you try this experience,wish some luck and try>If you want to go to this place,just tell them to bring you to "Beringin Kembar".Hope you have a good luck :)

Kraton of Yogyakarta

So,when i was in a vacation in Jogja,my parent's took me to the Kraton,or maybe we can called it The Palace of Jogja,there...i see many buildings that already builted 400 years ago,untill now,the building's still standing strong,with many places with each function,this is a few photo from the Palace :

The Main Gate

The King Palace (just like the White House)

Gate to the Museum of The Palace

The Court for War Exercise

The Guardian of The Palace or The Servant that take care the Palace,they called "Abdi Dalam"

Meeting Hall in The Exercise Court

The Office

Antique Item's in the museum

tandu for sultan,carried by soldiers

The Dancer's

A Dormitory for Girl's long ago

Court for War Exercise

The "Abdi Dalam" there's male and female

Javanese Dance with original traditional music

a place to hide from the sun or eat with "lesehan" style

Another Hall

Palace Situation

A Hallway to the Palace and through the Main Hall,usually use for meet a guest from another country or place